I overthought the situation wayyyy too much because eventually my dreams were turning out to be nightmares about Nazeef gossiping to his friends about some of my darkest secrets that practically no one knew… This was getting out if control and so one day i mustered up the courage to go over and talk to him..
It was just after P.E period and almost everyone looked zonked as it was the first one of the term so I guess we were a little out of shape. “You don’t look like you took sucha beating!” I exclaimed
“Well.. Fitness comes in handy most of the time not that you would know of😉 ”
“Oh thanks hey..” 😒
“Soo… You here because?”
Well that was awkwardly rude, but lets just get this off my back.
“The other day… What you said about me hiding behind my meanness and what not? It got me thinking”
“Wow!!! Well that’s one tick on my bucket list, getting Sabeeha Karanie to think deeply…” He had this huge smile on his face and it really wasn’t funny. He pat himself on the back about a million times. After what seemed like forever he got serious again and said “look I didn’t want you to overthink it or anything it is just that…. Well someone needed to tell you the truth that you can’t just shut all your emotions off and not care about others feelings either because sooner or later you going to regret it”
“Okay…. Well, thank you for doing so..”
Today I am a girl on campus with trust me all my emotions turned on and I have got to admit that caring sucks at times but it also gives you a certain type of peace I can’t explain. I never saw Nazeef again or if I did, in huge crowds so I never got to really thank him for what he did to me but the lesson I learned from him will be carried by me to my grave and beyond. To all the precious readers of my sad tale:
You may not have that person in your life like I did, but you don’t need them. You have it within you to recognize your own faults. The simple and easy step is that you embrace your wrongs and learn to live with them. My concluding advise is that when others are staring out the window, glance at the mirror you will find that without a magnifying glass you can see faults you never knew were there.
– YOUR SISTER IN ISLAM