I felt like my whole world was crumbling and the skies were hailing arrows. His Mayyat was after Esha on that depressing Sunday. Mum and Aunty Halima thought I wasn’t well, but I knew the truth and it pained me deep down to know that he was gone. We never conversed very often and it was fine with me. I never needed for talk with him to understand his emotions. People say that you know it is true love when you pray for that person every day and I am certain of this but people also say that when you young, it is infatuation and not love, but I disagree with this since when the pain hits you deep down it can’t be just some random person, you know it is true love.
Maybe Allah took him away for a reason and not a day goes by that I think and ponder about him, but I know that Allah doesn’t burden a soul with more than it can bare.
Today I am 21 years of age and still can’t get Yahya of my mind but I am proud to say that in my years which were filled with ups and downs that had it not been for that incident I would have not turned to Allah the way I do now. Indeed Allah is the one and only who is the knower of all that exists even beneath our flesh, caged in our souls.
I hope and pray that Allah brings along another love of life, but until then Allah will suffice for me as my love because I know that he is forever……
– YOUR SISTER IN ISLAM